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"What men call social virtues, good fellowship, is
commonly but the virtue of pigs in a litter, which lie close together to
keep each other warm." - Henry David Thoreau
The Question, and My Answer
What Thoreau is referring to above are those that cultivate relationships
that are merely symbiotic, based on the trading dynamic, not the
love-sharing dynamic. These relationships are not
based on the aspects of love beyond being mutually beneficial on a shallow
level of commitment. An example
may be two immature teenage girls that are doing little more than using each
other to reassure themselves of their acceptability and value. I am NOT
saying these relationships are wrong or evil, just describing them for what
they are. The question is whether it is ever realistic, ever possible to
love your brother as yourself?
So, put yourself in my place for a bit while I summarize some of the
major things I learned the hard way:
- I found myself born into a dirty, noisy, messy, troubled, dangerous, insane world under a
sentence of death.
- I learned early that my own body is subject to pain and
suffering, damage and disease, via personal experience with the loss of a
finger on my right hand at the age of two, measles, tonsillitis with surgery and hospitalization
at the age of four,
- I learned early the members of my own family were not consistent in
their behavior and their belief.
- I have found that men, as more than one philosopher
has observed, truly DO desire to be deceived on a vast range of issues.
- I find
myself compelled through experience to acknowledge a deep seated
perversity in the mind and soul of Man.
- I eventually was staggered by the
amount of human suffering, and the level of falsity, noise and confusion in
the realm of the mind and heart.
- I see that
the spiritual world of 7+ billion people is hopelessly philosophically and
spiritually fragmented where Christendom
accounts for about 1/3 of the religious orientation, where Islam
accounts for about 1/4, where the balance is made up of the rest, with
Judaism accounting for an insignificant number yet with an undue
influence upon the civilized world.
- I see that not one religion,
ideology, organization, denomination, sect, or belief system is in a
- I see there is nothing but fragmentation and minorities with
The Flaws of Christian
I have been raised a fundamentalist Christian where:
I have found
that the "special" truths that set my denomination apart are not only tenuous
or groundless, but are damaging to spiritual, psychological health.
I have found
that the confusion and falsities are rampant and flagrant
I found that this way of
life did not engender spiritual, emotional and social growth for me
I found this way didn't
work for me without cauterizing my own legitimate needs and desires
I found that I was being
asked to abrogate my logic and reason far too often in far
too many ways.
I have seen that much
Christian doctrine is an excuse for hypocrisy.
At some midlife point I
realized that I was so saturated with the fundamentalist paradigm that I
could read the very statements of Jesus and not hear the plain and otherwise
obvious meaning. When I sloughed off the paradigm I was SHOCKED by what he
I have seen
that preachers and evangelists use undue and rank psychological manipulation
of the "Flock".
I have seen
that preachers and evangelists use cheap Hollywood tactics in their
promotional efforts and evangelical outreach, wherein these do not represent anything very sincere or
honorable. The emotions are stimulated and manipulated directly rather than
naturally through an intellectually responsible approach
I have seen
that serious ethical violations, breaches of universal Christian
standards and legal and criminal violations--including egregious sexual
violations--by the priests, pastors
and leadership are covered up and investigations are suppressed by
various means, for example, by moving these men to different
dioceses, churches, areas and regions.
And it can be truly said,
“Never has so much been promised and so little delivered.”
Old Testament unsound
I have learned:
- that the Bible, the cornerstone of Christianity, has its Old Testament
based on redacted, dimly understood ancient Hebrew and Egyptian mythology.
- that it is hopelessly
mistranslated into English on top of that.
just the discovery of the Ebla tablets pushed one scholar to say that as
much as 25% of the Old Testament needs to be retranslated. I had
already learned for myself that some of the numbers are logically
infeasible and many of the scenarios
are physically and/or scientifically impossible, even granting miracles.
- that virtually all the words translated as God were names and
titles of Saturn, with a few examples of other planet gods thrown in.
- that the selection of the books for this canon have almost
everything to do with them being culturally treasured with no higher
New Testament unsound
I have learned:
- that the
best secular Koine Greek scholars laugh with derision and scorn at the
way the New Testament is translated, and yet new and better translations
will raise a storm of protest and will not sell well if they change too much. This dynamic ensures
- that the Gospels of the New
Testament are hopelessly contradictory in some of their accounts.
- that we have almost no original manuscripts of the Gospel material,
and that the foundation for accepting most of the New Testament material as
genuine and not forged or contrived is tenuous at best.
the standards for legitimate discrimination concerning these ancient documents are
so low that the Gospel of Thomas is considered to be Gnostic and unfit
because it was found with other Gnostic documents.
- that the
selection of the New Testament canon was probably somewhat if not primarily
political and arbitrary, and that there is little reason to think that God
was involved at all in the process.
Seneca’s plays as Gospel
- I have learned that some of the scenarios in the synoptic Gospels are patterned in form
and content after the Roman Senator Seneca’s plays.
- I also have learned that there are
many parallels between the accounts about Jesus and the ancient Egyptian
god Horus and other mythological warrior heroes.
- I also have learned that the origins and authorship of
almost all of the New Testament books are unknown or highly suspect.
- After looking at a couple of Greek-English interlinear texts of the
gospels,.I have learned that the published English translations are wide of the
mark in some important places or on important issues.
- After learning some Greek and
translating the Gospels for myself by heavily relying on Greek reference
materials, I see that even the most learned
theologians do not understand what Jesus claimed to be, why he came, and
what he is offering. Not one that I can find even applies to a
critical analysis the simple standards of evidence used in our
The Jesus Seminar scholars
I learned that 200 concerned Christian scholars have banded together and formed the
Jesus Seminar, with the purpose of analyzing and evaluating the Gospel
material found in the New Testament. Given that the three Synoptic Gospels
are expanded compilations of previous material, their highest criterion for
assigning authenticity to the various Gospel documents and passages seems to
be whether they can find prior material in which the passages are rooted.
Based on this rather arbitrary and unworthy standard, any new and original
eyewitness account like the Gospel of John would have no such previous reference. Thus
I realize these scholars of the Jesus Seminar
unanimously throw out the
ONLY Gospel in the New Testament that otherwise proves to be an eyewitness
account, the one that is the most historically defensible, the one that deals with the
real issues, and the one that makes the most sense. Not to overlook mentioning,
the only one that has the really good news in it!
Authenticity Challenging books
I learned that there are, and I become acquainted with, the
half dozen serious books such as The Passover Conspiracy, The Pagan
Christ, Revolution in Judea, etc., that challenge a sensible
understanding of the Jesus affair. These are all purporting to show in
various ways that Jesus was a fabricated myth, or a real man but a sham,
or greatly embellished in the crucial aspects, or incredibly rich and
connected, or a political zealot, etc., now made into something exotic,
and otherworldly by the
Remarkable Men losing their faith
- I have seen that some of the world’s most intelligent men
born as Christians, men of admirable integrity and learning, like Ernest Renan, John
Stuart Mill, Henry Sidgewick, et al, lost their faith while thinking and
advancing in understanding and intellectual responsibility.
- I have seen that wonderful men
vision like Voltaire, Rousseau,
Spinoza and contemporaries struggled to free Europe from the dark, oppressive
control of superstitious Christianity and bring it into some form of
Cacophony of Confusion
- Now in the age of enhanced communication and travel, I found the world
to be a cacophony of confusion where there are a multitude of voices all
claiming to have the truth and assailing me with powerful calls to come
their way, with alluring promises of universally desired payoffs if I do.
- I see that, when men are doing their best to persuade
you, they are mostly only trying to convince themselves of what they say
- I now see the world on the brink of a most terrible
World War III fostered by incompatible religious and political belief, and
visions of control and financial supremacy.
Apathy and lack of engagement
- In the first 35 years of
being available 24/7/365 for serious, open, honest discussion, I have found only
two men, dear friends, that would
systematically dedicate significant time to actually go over the
fundamental issues and the Gospel material point by point with a responsible
critical attitude in logical study and
discussion, only to find ultimately that the first was fatally flawed; too old, too tired,
too wasted to open his mind and travel all the way. He committed suicide.
- I have learned that most men would actually rather die than take intellectual
and spiritual responsibility and change what they believe in a fundamental
Denial of ancient planetary catastrophes
After 40+ years of
studying the ancient astral catastrophes through ancient literature and accounts,
mythology, geology, astrophysics, anthropology, archaeology, petroglyphs,
psychology, etc., and studying the
surface scarring record left on the moon, Mars, and other moons and planets
including the earth, I have learned the material can coalesce to make coherent
sense within the paradigms of the Saturnian Reconstruction of Ancient Times
and the Electric Universe paradigm. Yet these heavily supported and powerful
constructions are suppressed, rejected, or ignored by both academic and
Suitable paradigms explaining paranormal phenomena
After 40+ years of honing my understanding with other serious paradigms
such as the Holographic Universe, the Collective Consciousness, the
Morphogenetic Resonance Field, and the Bicameral Brain Mind, I have been
develop sensible answers for the widespread mystical experiences of
special, timely dreams, visions, voices, mass hallucinations, and
documented, undeniable paranormal phenomena. The latter includes telepathy
with which I have unequivocal personal experience. These explanations are
more reasonable than to ascribe them as being gifts from God or support from a fantasy devil.
The inertia and paralysis of science
years of scientific learning, including the recent 40+ in consideration of the Electric Universe
paradigm and the Saturnian Reconstruction, I see that scientists in the fields of
geology, paleontology, biology, genetics, astronomy, anthropology, psychology, mythology,
et al, all have major anomalies to deal with that should force seeking a
different paradigm, and yet they often don’t even have much of a clue as to the major
forces or factors at work in their own fields. For example, mainstream
geologists still appeal to vast amounts of time, and wind and water erosion
to explain electrical scarring that took just minutes to occur. Of the most
prominent psychologists like Freud, Jung, Adler, et al, ONLY
Velikovsky offered a sound basis for the unhinged psychology of the human
Visions and messages from God
After conversing with several people who claim that God visited or talked
with them, I find the
conclusion TO BE inescapable that they are all deluded into thinking that
bicameral brain communications resulting in visions and voices are the
special revelations from God, and they feel privileged and special because
of it. I have even experienced this myself
when under severe emotional distress, yet now consider that God had nothing
to do with it. Time and time again, the majority of these pronouncements and
prophecies have proven false, but this is all generally overlooked and
The five Laments of John
In the face of all
this, after I have suffered the "slings and arrows", the significant
vicissitudes of life, I came to be comfortable in considering and
challenging the big picture of reality with which I was programmed, and the efficacy of
any religion at all outside of humanism. Then
I finally saw, during my Gospel translation endeavor that even the Gospel writer John gives five laments
in his first three chapters about the
efforts of Jesus being misunderstood, not working and essentially coming to naught.
This is astounding in that in four dozen years of extensive Christian education and
church-going, I have NEVER heard this admitted or even ever referenced at
Lack of Tangible Affirmation
Since I was NOT there to SEE with my own eyes and
HEAR with my own ears, where ALL I have to go on is 1300 years (2000 in
mainstream chronology) of failure and
disappointment, and tiny black letters on white paper giving tenuous, sketchy,
and sometimes false
accounts, where all seems to be delusion or shifting sand, I canvassed my
own soul as to the reason to believe or not to believe.
reactionary and unloving Christian community
Finally, I must be deal with what some think is the bottom line, which
sentiment is buttressed by the very words of Jesus, "By this will all men
know that you are my followers, that you have love for one another." When I
began to seriously challenge my denomination's doctrinal positions, it
was treated as being absurd and threatening, and not ONE person was willing
to seriously engage with me, sit down and reason out the issues. EVERYBODY
had an agenda that was higher than to study and discuss with me as a serious
seeker of truth and save my fellowship. One pastor tried to publicly
humiliate and shame me. The boss or senior pastor, in light of a
divorce that was initiated by my wife, told me I was welcome to come to
church and "fellowship" as long as I didn't say anything. I was rebuked, rebuffed, demeaned,
soon treated as a pariah and ultimately effectively shunned. All by people
that are profoundly ignorant. My own father disinherited me because I
stopped believing the Bible is the word of God. All of this, not because I was unethical, or
womanizing, or not paying my tithes, etc., but because I was challenging the
Given the above, what IS it that could or would convince me that Jesus IS who he said he was
and that I should take what he said seriously enough to order my life
I just wouldn't want the character, purpose, values, plan, demeanor, and behavior of
the Creator to be any other than what Jesus portrayed and DEMONSTRATED them to be.
The vision that I have gotten from taking a completely fresh look at the
life and message of Jesus--decoupled from Christian and Gnostic thinking--is
too elegant and compelling for me to live without believing! I want what is
being offered and can never settle for anything less.
See also: Why I am not a Christian